Someone has probably told you “you’re fucking crazy” at one point or another. When I reply with “I don’t think I’m that crazy” some people will shoot me an incredulous look and ask “are you serious?”
Okay, so what if last summer I got put in the looney bin and had to be force fed prescribed magic pills to make the voices go away? So what if three nurses had to hold me down to inject me with poison because I refused to take the “medicine”? So what if I spent the Summer of 2000-H8-MYSELFSOMUCH trapped in a room wallowing in my feces covered self-pity? I don’t think I’m that much of a psychopath…
I don’t keep diaries like most girls, but I do have a sketchbook which is almost the same thing. The following set of pics is from my 2007-2008 Moleskine. Put in chronological order, you can witness my mental descent into an abyss of neurosis.
Now you loyal SBTVC fans can proceed to tear me a new bloody asshole because like Vegan Jules, i too was an art student. So bring on the hate you herpes encrusted cunties, ’cause my birthday is tomorrow and negative comments are my favorite!
“‘Free the future from the shackles of the past!’ – OK. Whatever. If I want to get schooled I’ll pick up a book on communism.” – Haha, WTF? My reaction to a shitty piece of video art.
“What an artist needs, is a good shit to take.” Robert Foreman said Ernest Hemingway supposedly said this.
“5:27 AM” What was I doing on the train then? I used to bartend. Ew, I know. This is why a lot of my sketches are of people sleeping on the train.
The woman in the foreground was rapping to Salt ‘N Pepa really hard & loud so I had to draw her because I fell in love.
“What next?” is written all over this book. I don’t know! Fucking frightening.
“Lincoln Center. Opera House.” Took a class trip to watch the play of Voltaire’s Candide. The security guard said I couldn’t take photos of the gigantic ball on the ceiling.
“i. No water running this morning. Water main break in building. Carlos turned on the faucet & was excited water was running until the liquid started turning poop brown. The toilet started to make volcanic erupting noises. & when I lifted the the toilet-seat, semi-solid gumbo of feces replaced the previously clear water.” – Brooklyn living can be so ghetto.
“iii. ‘I don’t want to work a 9 – 5 job. I want to be famous!’ – Isabelle at Film Forum. Graphic design student living in Williamsburg. Internship / No job. Dresses ‘hip.’ Asked about pursuing Master’s… ‘I want to but I feel if I go now, it’d just be me not wanting to grow up.” UGH REALLY!? Art school cunts. True stooorrryyyy. Ugh. Really.
You can probably read the text yourself.
“Latino Adonis dripping with gold chains.” LOL @ STUDENT WRITING. Oh, the School of Visual Arts really does have the most brilliant screenwriters. Ahahahaha. This is the last page I finished before I got admitted to the psychiatric ward. Eguguughhhhh. While I was in there, I had done some drawings of the patients I was with, but I don’t know what happened to them. There’s a really upsetting portrait of my father I drew when he visited me. His eyes were the saddest even though he was smiling. His phone number is written all over the page so I wouldn’t forget. I’m not posting it.
This is how I draw when heavily medicated. Can you tell the difference? I did… so I put the pen down and didn’t draw for a long while.
+++ BONUS PHOTOS
How did I end up not killing myself? This is me last summer. The driver here is the poor sucker who I was dating (on/off since I was 16) who helped me stay alive. When I was hospitalized, he was touring the mid-west playing his guitar and had a total freak out when he couldn’t be there for me. Since we broke up this past fall, we don’t speak at all. My hair was shorter and my mind was full of prescription chemicals. I’m not girlfriend material because I’m always fucking things up!
Here is a recent picture of me sucker punching poor Arv with a mean left hook. Oops. We both didn’t remember this until the pictures were shown to us the next morning. My hair is now longer and my mind is full of un-prescribed chemicals. I’m not girlfriend material because I’m always fucking things up!
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It took me several months to tell even my best of friends what had really happened to me because I was severely traumatized & afraid they wouldn’t want to be around me anymore. But now if you think I’m too insane to hang out with–well I wouldn’t want to be your friend anyway!
Don’t worry about me either. Even though I’m single, broke, unemployed, and drunk off my ass at open bars all the time, I’m having the best summer of my life right now.
Last month, I read a scientific article on how a genetic mutation linked to psychosis and schizophrenia may unleash creative potential in some and psychotic delusions in others. Creative genes have been found!? True or false? What are your thoughts?
-Val
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The girl in the background of the last picture should be advised not to paint her toe nails because i find that it looks gross. Who cares what peoples thoughts are on some article no one but you has probably read. True. If you want to draw go draw if you don’t then don’t, but don’t use your psychosis as some badge of authenticity and don’t come begging here for some bullshit reassurance from strangers. I like your drawings. That punching photo looks staged.
08.13.09 at 12:22 pm
You seem cute, i’d date you…but those sketches are just TOO CRAZY. i mean people on the SUBWAY!? jesus christ your a real sicko. thanks for having the courage to reveal such personal and traumatic information.
sorry, i just fell into a really deep sarCHASM.
08.13.09 at 12:29 pm
LOLUSOCRAZYOLOLOLOL!
08.13.09 at 12:31 pm
What if I don’t believe you? What if my extremely high IQ combined with my extensive experience with schizophrenia tells me that you’re lying? What if?
08.13.09 at 12:39 pm
I think you’ve seen that winona ryder/angelina jolie movie one too many times and decided that going “crazy” would be a good way to guilt trip your pees into giving you more money. I also know for a fact that Arv is way too lightweight to ever associate with any genuine schizos. You’re a liar, but that’s okay, schizophrenia sells.
08.13.09 at 12:44 pm
some believe that mental illness is one expression of a fucked up family system. perhaps you left your family of origin. that doesn’t mean that the script they put on you is not still being played out.
08.13.09 at 12:50 pm
I like it.
The 22nd chromosome.
08.13.09 at 12:55 pm
i like your drawings – especially un-medicated. and happy b-day yo. fuck the h8rs.
08.13.09 at 12:58 pm
So I’m a hater because I don’t believe that she’s schizo? Not suffering from the most unbelievably terrifying mental illness known to man is a good thing…you fucking fag.
08.13.09 at 1:03 pm
In college I always fanaticized about being locked in a loony bin (pre Jolie/Rider movie). I thought that I would be able to paint a much as I wanted, and I wouldn’t have to scrounge for something to eat (I starved my ass off in college – I looked fabulous!). I forgot about the thorazine or whatever the hell they give you in there. I think that they should administer pot and shrooms instead. It would probably be more beneficial. Definitely more fun.
08.13.09 at 1:15 pm
boooorrrrinnng. you should trying being honest, first with your self, cause noone is gonna give a shit otherwise. your life is not a movie, so stop acting.
08.13.09 at 1:20 pm
schizophrenia is too often mis-diagnosed by doctors who want to get as many people as possible into the system. i’ve been around art school kids my whole life and have seen way too many waste valuable years convinced that they’re schizophrenic. it’s like the ultimate street cred for the artist, but when it comes down to it, every true schizophrenic i’ve ever known is way too busy tripping the fuck out to have time for doodling. it’s a horrid horrid thing that honestly makes me wish that this girl is just full of shit.
08.13.09 at 1:23 pm
stfu VANESSA! YOU RUIN EVERYTHING! I WANT HER TO BE MY FRIEND! YOU DON;T KNOPW SHIT FOR SHIT BITCH! STFU!!!!!!!!!! MAYBE SHE’LL WANNA DRINK BEERS WITH ME UNLIKE YOU FUCKER!!!!!!!!
08.13.09 at 1:26 pm
Yeah, I don’t believe her to be a schizophrenic either, a bit melodramatic really. The two clinically diagnosed schizophrenics I have known could have never structured even a semi-coherent article. Especially unmedicated. My friend Mitch is way too busy with the birds always getting after him and making him have to shit. And my other friend Bubba was dead within a year or two of his rapid, and devastating descent into schizophrenia.
I don’t see anything here that indicates anything “crazy”. Just some post-teen years bullshit. Rich parents? Can I get either confirmation or denial birthday girl?
08.13.09 at 1:28 pm
i wonder if valerie likes unicorns and chicken wings and oscar de mejo paintings? these are a few of my favorite things.
08.13.09 at 1:30 pm
I’ll give you fifty cents for the whole thing… including your chick.
I have paypal.
08.13.09 at 1:37 pm
Schizophrenia is progressive. She’s young. Give her time before you think she’s not bad enough.
God people are pushy about what other people need to be.
The medicated drawings are singular, or just what they are. I like the piled on, repetitious unmedicated ones.
08.13.09 at 1:37 pm
If I’ve ever seen a post on this site that I think should be taken down…it’s this one. Bring happiness into our lives. Show us your naked ass.
08.13.09 at 1:39 pm
This is just like that movie Art School Confidential, only 1000x more uninteresting.
08.13.09 at 1:42 pm
I went through a period where I heard voices. When I weepingly told my honest doctor about it he looked into my ears and prescribed a round of antibiotics. Problem solved. I had an ear infection.
08.13.09 at 1:44 pm
can you imagine even an early stage schizophrenic suffering through the process of putting together 12 Neat Pics: China vs. Japan? i don’t think so. as someone already said: “too busy tripping the fuck out.” nice try chicky baby.
08.13.09 at 1:47 pm
p.s. do you want to be my little brother’s date to the autumn social down at the HUD building? I’ll give you air-fare, hotel room, and malt liquor/cig money for both of you. let me know.
08.13.09 at 1:50 pm
THANKS VANE$$A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE SHE SAYS YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS…
08.13.09 at 1:51 pm
Communication is the universal solvent
08.13.09 at 2:00 pm
sorry babe, I’d love to tell you what a shitty waste of sperm you are like vegan jules, but unfortunately you’d have to actually suck at art and life to get that sort of response. my sketchbooks from art school are way better though if that’s any consolation.
08.13.09 at 2:00 pm
When you can be your own best audience and when your applause is the best applause you know of, you’re in good shape
08.13.09 at 2:02 pm
I’d like to see paintings before passing judgement on her art skills. There are actually a few remaining places where skills like hers are considered pedestrian. I like how her bio is forever changing. Remember when she lived in Vancouver and interned for some hot shot agency?
08.13.09 at 2:04 pm
“Last month, I read a scientific article on how a genetic mutation linked to psychosis and schizophrenia may unleash creative potential in some and psychotic delusions in others.”
Makes 18 tons of sense to me. Every creative type I know, which definitely includes myself, struggles a lot with depression and mood swings.
Because this post is on Street Carnage, I sorta don’t know whether to see it as a big put-on (anytime anyone is too sincere on this site I get suspicious), but if it’s for real, then I’m glad you’re doing better. Take care of yourself.
08.13.09 at 2:05 pm
I kept waiting for the drawings to degenerate drastically – a la this guy: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Louis_Wain. Didn’t really see it. I mean, I wasn’t there, so I don’t know, but sometimes people just get sad and fucked up for a while. Maybe there’s some people that prefer to have their sadness glamorized by a diagnosis, and I guess that’s fine. I came looking for more sensationalism, and I got some sort-of interesting artwork that reminded me of Brian Wood. Oh well.
08.13.09 at 2:08 pm
“Take care of yourself.”
08.13.09 at 2:09 pm
I went to SVA as well, way way back at the end of the 80s. My first year, 88-89 I was in the Sloan House YMCA on 34th street. It was the last year they used it for student housing. And for good reason. The place was mainly used by crack dealers and prostitutes. There were many rapes there that year including 2 female students. The shower curtains in the communal bathroom were all slashed by the sick faggots that lived there. There were quite a few murders there as well that year. The day I arrived some crack dealer was covered in gas and lit on fire, burning to death, right around the corner. Welcome to NY motherfuckers! I think what really made it the last year though was the spectacular suicide that many students witnessed. Around 5pm when a lot of kids were getting back from classes somebody decided to end it all. They jumped off the roof (or was pushed, who knows?) and fell to their death. They hit the flagpole in front of the building on their way down splitting their body in half. The two parts splatted right in front of the main entrance, spraying a few of my classmates with blood and guts. They said that the guy was still conscious after he hit the ground. His upper torso intact and his eyes open, looking around in terror at the horrified crowd. Ask some of your teachers that have been there since the 80s, they probably know the story.
08.13.09 at 2:09 pm
Just Like a thousand times before
08.13.09 at 2:11 pm
i know it’s not worth writing but by the time you’re 30 you get so fucking sick of pretty, privileged young people with perfect lives trying to get people to feel sorry for them. i have known so many people who have sung this song, word for word. and i have also known people who had schizophrenia for real. i would say it’s maybe the most horrific misery a human being can go through outside of rape and torture. i’m sorry this girl is in such need of an identity that she’d exploit something like schizophrenia and i’m sorry there are so many people who are stupid enough to do anything but roll their eyes at her posturing.
08.13.09 at 2:49 pm
RE: Joey Odessa Says:
“I also know for a fact that Arv is way too lightweight to ever associate with any genuine schizos.”
WTF? Not that it isn’t true, but seriously, WTF?
08.13.09 at 3:07 pm
Oh no. Arv wants me to give him an enema with my penis. Sorry, I’m not into gay miscegenation.
08.13.09 at 3:15 pm
So anyone with schizophrenia rolls around so tortured all day they can’t put 12 pieces of art or words together? What about Ligabu? Anyway, she didn’t say she had schizophrenia.
I like it when people explain the drawings with the drawings.
08.13.09 at 3:18 pm
sometimes i feel like gavin doesn’t even know arv and val but instead just lifts shit from their blogs and puts it on here. would he really hire a dude that writes pretentious horseshit like that story about the artist that arv posted at his blog? yukky.
08.13.09 at 3:19 pm
I just saw val’s flickr photostream. If by “schizophrenic” she means “asian cheerleader” then I’m definitely buying her claims.
08.13.09 at 3:20 pm
get real.
08.13.09 at 3:42 pm
your drawings really do not look as if a schizophrenic drew them, and you don’t sound like a schizo in yr entries. heavily medicated will change you whether you need it or not. and that last photo looks so staged
08.13.09 at 3:44 pm
Yeah you and Wesley Willis are basically drawing with the same brain. This is without a doubt completely different than every thing a freshman art student draws their first year. You are a totally unique and these drawings aren’t fucking average in every fucking way why did I read this boring fucking article?
08.13.09 at 3:57 pm
mental disorders and creativity go hand in hand. Just look at an art school’s stat and shocked/amazed/indifferent. Drawings are neat.
08.13.09 at 3:59 pm
the real problem with her schizo claim is that relative to the genuinely crazy people here (blognigger) she’s obviously completely sane. the truly disturbed (blognigger) will make you feel like they’re trying to infect you with their disease, and they (blognigger) can do it through a computer screen. i don’t feel that happening here. all i’m getting from this is a time magazine vibe.
the drawings are good. keep it up.
08.13.09 at 4:32 pm
beautiful book. what moleskins are made for.
08.13.09 at 4:54 pm
I think we need to disable the comments so we can all grieve in pieces.
08.13.09 at 5:05 pm
People put too much effort into commenting on something that they didn’t enjoy reading/something that they will undoubtedly debunk immediately because they’ve “seen it all before”.
08.13.09 at 5:06 pm
one woman’s terrifying descent into lameness
08.13.09 at 5:16 pm
ZzZzZzZ
08.13.09 at 5:29 pm
@flickn’beans
“SarCHASM!”
-How original. Really!
RE@JoeyOdessa
“I think you’ve seen that winona ryder/angelina jolie movie one too many times and decided that going “crazy” would be a good way to guilt trip your pees into giving you more money.”
-Some people really do just have shitty fucking sad pathetic periods in their life to the extent that their family wants them to get help in the hospital where the doctors fuck up even more making it 10x worse because they get you too sedated to protest and really really you’re gonna reference Girl, Interrupted? So homo. And I would ask my parents for money but they don’t have any either ‘cuz my dad’s getting laid off soon. Kinda sucks.
Anyone wanna buy some drugs from me?
RE@drippy dog dix and cum bubbles or something & the other guy who said I was a young person living a perfect life
“Yeah, I don’t believe her to be a schizophrenic either, a bit melodramatic really. The two clinically diagnosed schizophrenics I have known could have never structured even a semi-coherent article. Especially unmedicated. My friend Mitch is way too busy with the birds always getting after him and making him have to shit. And my other friend Bubba was dead within a year or two of his rapid, and devastating descent into schizophrenia.”
I don’t see anything here that indicates anything “crazy”. Just some post-teen years bullshit. Rich parents? Can I get either confirmation or denial birthday girl?
-Ok, i spent my early childhood in a third world country and i’m thankful for it because i have a better perspective of the ghettoes you privileged Americans have only seen glamorized in the movies (i.e. Slumdog Millionaire / City of God) because i fucking lived it in Asia town. You don’t know me but i do know that you all think you’ve figured out how someone with a mental illness is supposed to act based on stereotypes in the media. Sorry to disappoint, kiddoes.
Also, i never said i was still suffering from it. You can get over it if you’re fortunate enough. Relapses are another thing though. Those are mentally and socially crippling- the absolute worst.
RE@Vane$$a
“p.s. do you want to be my little brother’s date to the autumn social down at the HUD building? I’ll give you air-fare, hotel room, and malt liquor/cig money for both of you. let me know.”
-I’m sure your schizzzo bro (or autistic yeah? that’s what he is right?) wouldn’t enjoy me as a date. I don’t do dates they’re too expensive. And i’m sure he likes “men” like you instead so you two should go together like a happy little incestuous family. Thanks for the offer though! Don’t forget the lube!
@homeless.
“you should trying being honest, first with your self, cause noone is gonna give a shit otherwise.”
-No one is two words. No one gives a shit about your life anyway. Or mine for that matter. So stop trying to be pure and meaningful you retard. COME MIERDA CABRON!
RE@Henry
“i wonder if valerie likes unicorns and chicken wings and oscar de mejo paintings? these are a few of my favorite things.”
-YYYEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! Did you know that Jesus Christ is sometimes symbolized as a unicorn in medieval art? Rad right? Can we get extra blue cheese on those chicken wings? And whodafux is Oscar de Mejo? Educate me.
In summation, i didn’t post my shit up here to get reassurance from strangers. I ALREADY KNOW IM THE MUTHAFUKKN SHIIIEEEEEET! These drawings suck and are mad old anyway. Also, putting something out there that I had kept secret for a while gives me closure that i’m fucking over it and i’m healthy again. Kind of. Suck it yall.
But to the two people who liked this post, high fives all around.
08.13.09 at 5:43 pm
I like how Vanessa is such an expert he can confirm or deny a diagnosis of schizophrenia based on hand full of posts on the internet. Your brother’s condition has no bearing on how afflicted this young lady is.
Bob – Your comment reads like an inarticulate uninteresting uninformed 2009 version of The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock. Hate young women much?
Why is it assumed that Valerie comes from a family with money?
What are these clues I am missing?
08.13.09 at 6:06 pm
You are undoubtedly full of shit.
08.13.09 at 6:31 pm
hey soooo legit
sva is a pretty good clue, stupid. but i didn’t say her family was rich. and don’t tell me i hate young women. i call bullshit on bullshit and that means i hate young women? fuck you. anybody who thinks this article is anything but stupid is stupid.
oh, and congrats on the 9th grade literary reference. fuckin impressed.
08.13.09 at 6:44 pm
awesome! i had a tough battle with psychosis that lasted a couple of years when i was younger. its always good to see smart, creative people dealing with it well. kinda like when bald people want to see awesome and influential balds like david cross or will oldham. also, my childhood best friend just started developing schizophrenia about 4 or 5 months ago. it was really scary, they had him taking horrible meds like seraquil which make you feel like shit. not he’s starting to adjust though. thanks for posting this, i hope you’re doing well. i bet you’d be a fun person to drink with
08.13.09 at 6:49 pm
Gavin has a great sense of humor letting these douches post their bullshit on his site. You might want to go easy on the schizo talk Val, no one wants to buy art from a straight-up drag. Don’t believe the hype. When you reach 25 you’ll realize that people only invest in those who have their shit together. They don’t want to deal with or consume your baggage, whether it be real or imagined. Go “schizo” after you’ve made some money and created a name for yourself. That order of things is much more appealing to the art buying public. It makes them feel like they had a hand in your demise.
If we ever meet, a hundred clams says you fall in love with me on the spot.
08.13.09 at 6:52 pm
tomorrow is my birthday too happy birthday
08.13.09 at 6:53 pm
sounds like somebody got molested, huh? maybe after everyone realizes how talented you are all of your problems will subside. too bad boring sketches and scribbling chicken scratch all over them doesn’t equal talent. it equals shit. try doing this when you’re thirty and see how many people give a fuck. stop thinking you are special, get a job and shut the fuck up.
08.13.09 at 7:31 pm
asian cheerleader for sure. sweet tumblr pics.
08.13.09 at 7:45 pm
holy shit vanessa is james frey
08.13.09 at 8:24 pm
i like it when people admit everything to anyone on the internet, it’s kind of like showing everyone your naked brain. that said, I admire people who keep things secret.
08.13.09 at 8:35 pm
BANG! brains against wall. (feeling after reading this)
08.13.09 at 8:54 pm
and also the oldest person commenting on this board. congratualations
08.13.09 at 8:58 pm
let’s all play our cards right and indulge her. if she keeps the rimbaud thing going we can act in similar libertine fashion and maybe get those delicious thighs wrapped around us in a moment of drunken horseplay. she is beautiful but damaged in a way she doesn’t understand – the act has been seen before in all of its beauty and if this is pointed out she’ll just get mad. why make her mad?
what if everyone you came in contact with treated you special because you were cute and fun and your affectations were interesting? it would be fantastic.
val, no matter what don’t let the crazy ruin your looks or else you’ll see the real madness of society when nobody gives a shit about your tendency towards instability. arv or whatever three letter-moniker’d internet auteur they have around this week definitely does not want the woman loudly rapping old salt ‘n pepa songs sitting on top of him when he is drunk. his hands won’t be in that position he’ll be struggling like an animal to get away. we all will.
08.13.09 at 9:03 pm
your drawings are pretty good, and i thought this post was pretty interesting.
most important thing to remember? keep drawing, keep drawing, keep drawing
more and more and more and more, and update us to show how yr progressing.
(who cares what all the no-lifers say in the negative on here, they’re not what its about)
08.13.09 at 9:11 pm
“I don’t want a 9 to 5 job. I want to be famous!”
08.13.09 at 9:17 pm
Yeah, “no-lifers.” I haven’t even been on this site for like a month.
08.13.09 at 9:19 pm
eh, val’s all right. i have deep ceded issues with creative asian women. just imagine my happiness and despair when I checked in here to find her going off about her schizophrenia. i could not resist. i truly hope it’s not true, and if it is, get well soon. you draw pretty good for someone sitting on the subway, especially with all them crazy black teens in yer face asking for money.
i started on meds a while back and don’t seem to have same edge anymore either. they say it’ll come back someday but with less stress. right now it’s all blah. for the most part i’m just happy knitting socks for my nephew. later.
08.13.09 at 10:10 pm
Geno’s Steaks.
08.13.09 at 10:38 pm
Pat’s
08.14.09 at 12:35 am
you are fucking hot, but your 12 neat pics posts are fucking lame.. dont use mental illness as the excuse for wanting to show everybody your drawings hey
08.14.09 at 1:57 am
“i started on meds a while back and don’t seem to have same edge anymore either.”
if you’re calling what you had an “edge” believe me you’re better off without it
08.14.09 at 3:44 am
Vane$$a makes me want to punch. her.
08.14.09 at 5:49 am
hey val, happy birthday you retard!
08.14.09 at 8:29 am
I am the light that shines over all things. I am everywhere. From me all came forth, and to me all return.
Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there,
08.14.09 at 10:06 am
I knew you were on drugs Vane$$a, mostly because you started thinking logic and responding rationally. When I called you out on it, you were scared, you refused to respond and that was confirmation enough.
My grandfather was schizophrenic, my grandmother is bipolar, and my other grandfather has a severe anxiety disorder. My parents managed to keep it together but I still have a noted predisposition to mental disorders.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorders at times in my life but avoided meds for the most part and instead attended cognitive thought therapy. I feel like it’s worked.
I had a close friend who was paranoid schizophrenic. Without a doubt he displayed all the stereotypical signs of the mental disorder as they are portrayed in movies.
Val; Your drawings were average-good, your subjects were average. It doesn’t seem like you were schizophrenic. Maybe you were just going through a tough phase of life and didn’t have the mental capabilities to deal with it. Regardless I know how liberating it can be to simply admit your mentally unstable or just a piece of shit.
Does mental illness result in creativity? No. If you have a creative outlet, often times it acts in a therapeutic way when you are on the rocks. Mental illness, if anything, can cause one to be more productive.
08.14.09 at 2:23 pm
please grow the fuck up.
08.14.09 at 3:31 pm
why are these people being indulged?
08.14.09 at 3:56 pm
I’ve grown up around schizophrenics and sever bipolar people my entire life. My family runs an independent living care and I’ve worked and helped out there for a good 25 of my 30 years of life. I feel like they’re a part of my family….they’re my insane aunts and uncles and I love them like family.
If anything, you seem to be more of a bipolar. Most people have no idea that severe bipolar people can hear voices and have visual hallucinations too so most people confuse the two. Plenty of doctors will misdiagnose patients, especially dual diagnosis. It’s just cooler to say that you’re schizo.
I call bullshit so shut the fuck up. I love you.
08.14.09 at 4:44 pm
Interesting artwork though. I like it. Tits or GTFO.
08.14.09 at 4:45 pm
Ugh, self serving bullshit.
08.14.09 at 7:29 pm
SCHIZOPHRENICS, MOLESKINES, TOURING BF WHO SAVED MY LYFE, IEEE PAY ATTENTION TO MEEE
08.14.09 at 7:32 pm
the only reason anyone likes this post is because she’s sporting the lotus position over arv in that one pic. you know how good that shit feels on your dick? FOR REAL. jizzum.
hey fuck you i ain’t posting comments too quickly!
08.14.09 at 7:33 pm
jesus christ i is fuckin drizzunk right about now…uh huh…but in a contemplative way…
08.14.09 at 7:35 pm
meh? meh.
08.14.09 at 9:28 pm
Maybe I knew so many people there because my friends are cheap and the concert was free, part of the institution’s long-running Out
08.14.09 at 10:18 pm
These are top…noice one!
08.15.09 at 4:14 am
your a fucking idiot, and anyone who is on your side is also a fucking idiot.
you obviously have no idea, on well anything.
and i hate you all.
why is it that we all want there to be something wrong with us?
why do we all fight to be the worst off?
sympathy?
i personally dont get it.
go jump if your all so messed up, please!
rid this world of losers like yourself.
08.15.09 at 7:33 am
Rock Lobster
Before you call people idiots, use the correct your.
You wrote
“go jump if your all so messed up, please!”
It should have been
go jump if YOU’RE all so messed up, please!
YOU ‘ RE
you are
you are
you are
get it?
08.15.09 at 8:53 am
Bob the genius,
the comments
“Why is it assumed that Valerie comes from a family with money?
What are these clues I am missing?”
were not for you specifically, but calling her one of the “privileged young people with perfect lives” suggests to me you hold that view anyhow.
thanks for calling me stupid, nothing validates a point like some good old elementary school name calling. really, very scathing. .
I didn’t tell you you hate women, just asked
“by the time you’re 30 you get so fucking sick of pretty, privileged young people with perfect lives trying to get people to feel sorry for them.”
just comes off a bit embittered. You have an issue with someone behaving a certain way who is young and in your opinion pretty, it doesn’t seem that you have a problem with her actions as much as her age and appearance.
oh, and congrats writing something that comes off as an ill formed version of 9th grade literature.
you give me too much credit though, i never made it past 8th grade :*(
i liked it when you wrote stupid 3 times bullshit 2 times fuck you and fuckin. You use the coolest words.
08.15.09 at 9:27 am
@Val Voline
For someone who thinks she’s the ‘SHIIIEEEEEET,’ you certainly are defensive. Which makes me think you did post this for validation. Kinda lame.
Confidence is cool. Fuck the haters.
08.15.09 at 3:07 pm
I really like your drawings. I think antidepressants help creativity because when I was on them I became manic and drew all over my walls.
08.15.09 at 3:34 pm
I really did like your sketches. but you can’t call your OWN stuff “neat”
cocky bitch
08.15.09 at 4:03 pm
why do hipsters always have to fall in love w/ annoying fux on trains doing shit like loudly rapping to salt-n-pepa. give me a fucking break.
08.15.09 at 11:05 pm
The woman with glasses in the heavily-medicated-drawings is the most interesting to me.
08.16.09 at 9:12 am
^^^^get your own handle, asshole
08.16.09 at 9:47 am
RE@PoonieMuff
“For someone who thinks she’s the ‘SHIIIEEEEEET,’ you certainly are defensive. Which makes me think you did post this for validation. Kinda lame.”
-Validation of what? If I wanted the internet to suck my dick, I’d make a DeviantArt in attempts to build a cult following of 13 year old artists. But really now I’m going to find fans on Street Carnage? Deez nutz, N166A.
RE@yo
“but you can’t call your OWN stuff “neat” cocky bitch”
-Ok, would asking Gavin to change the column name to 12 Stupid Pics apppeeeease you? Go write a Dear Street Carnage letter you pontificating bitch!
But methinks thou doth protest too much.
RE@white cacao
“why do hipsters always have to fall in love w/ annoying fux on trains doing shit like loudly rapping to salt-n-pepa. give me a fucking break.”
-why do ripsters always have to fall in love w/ leaving h8 comments on blogs whining about shit other people like. give me a fucking break. (but not really cuz you guys give me the LAFFS)
08.16.09 at 10:53 am
lick it up baby…lick…it…up…
08.16.09 at 1:18 pm
too boring to be schizophrenic
08.16.09 at 3:36 pm
If you copy those pics and zoom in on them you’ll see what an inane tragi-comedy her writings are. Def not schizo. Reads like a vegan’s grocery list, maaaaaaaaaaaaan.
08.16.09 at 6:56 pm
s0zz Soooo Legit iF me gramm@a w@znt uPta skr@tCh.
08.17.09 at 3:20 am
rock lobster, wut iz srczm?
08.17.09 at 5:07 am
hahaha, i apologise, im not used to being so destroyed over the internet.
08.20.09 at 7:49 am