Things have always happened to me early. I lost my virginity when I was 14. That’s kinda early. I ran away from home when I was 15 and never came back, which is kinda early to bust out forevs.
Now I’m just fresh into my 30s and feelin’ all like, woah, man, shit, is this all there is? And by “this”, I guess I mostly mean writing dingy jingles for a living? I love what I do but let’s face it, I’m not living the life I always dreamed. I’m paying my bills, sure, but who isn’t while simultaneously wishing there was more?
I spent the summer pretty cool-like — toured the UK in huge festivals alongside Janeane Garofalo, Doug Stanhope, Faith No More, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Pretenders, Grace Jones, and tons of others who probably didn’t even see me perform or remember my name. Nothing to complain about there. But I have to say it was a drag to return home to the US to where no one really cares. Why should they? They’ve got Lady Gaga and Beyonce to be in love with. They’ve got the top pop hits to dance to. Why jam out to songs about committing suicide to the song your ex-bf wrote about you, or eating tons of shit as a stoner on Thanksgiving?
Looking back on the way I’ve spent the last eight years of my life, I feel kind of like a successful loser. I guess that’s not the worst thing in the world — or is it?
Anyway, happy Tuesday. Or is it Monday? I don’t even know any more.
-JESSICA DELFINO
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Pretty dreary. If you feel like adopting, word on the street is it’s a five year wait for a healthy white baby.
12.14.09 at 10:20 am
great. thanks for the downer.
12.14.09 at 10:28 am
nice promo, get fucked
12.14.09 at 10:38 am
Seriosly, when are the “…is a fucking asshole” DVDs shipping?
12.14.09 at 10:42 am
Peggy Lee
12.14.09 at 10:44 am
33 aint too fresh. 40 and saggy tits are just around the corner.
12.14.09 at 10:59 am
You’re a muscian? Cool. Can you come to my birthday party and bum everybody out?
12.14.09 at 11:07 am
urg
12.14.09 at 11:41 am
I guess when you go Grandma Gray just into your 30’s life is pretty bleak. I hope that’s a picture of her mother and not this Jessica woman.
12.14.09 at 11:55 am
its ok you have a cute mouth in that earring pic
12.14.09 at 11:58 am
whenever I feel down, I listen to the rape whistle song. Aah, the memories…
12.14.09 at 12:15 pm
‘What day is it?’
‘Christ, my life is so weird and monotonous. When’s my birthday? Oh god – I’ve had so many. Is this it? Oh god. Being so creative and special in this stifling society of ours is so draining. Oh god.’
12.14.09 at 12:20 pm
Get married and have a kid already. That’s what people are made for right?
12.14.09 at 12:57 pm
pretty lame.
12.14.09 at 1:25 pm
it’s hard when your self indulgent fantasies of ruling the world when you’re 20 come apart.
12.14.09 at 1:45 pm
@Nathan: Just sent the lot of them out on Friday.
12.14.09 at 1:46 pm
I get this. I’m younger and probably more successful and I still feel the same way. Especially in the winter. My advice is just ride it out because as soon as you find a new creative outlet (and possibly some warmer weather) the bummed feeling passes.
12.14.09 at 1:59 pm
Kill yourself.
12.14.09 at 2:09 pm
Are you hot? Or did you get fat. Fat old people suck. I would fuck you. If you’re interesting. I still think that is what it’s all about…
12.14.09 at 2:11 pm
Street Carnage, you gotta quit giving columns to just any girl who blows you.
12.14.09 at 2:31 pm
brave new world up in this shit. welcome to the future.
12.14.09 at 2:32 pm
Mid 30s, thats a spring chicken that is.
12.14.09 at 4:49 pm
Cheer up, lady. Your “pussy is magic”.
12.14.09 at 5:18 pm
Eat some shrooms and find your spirit animal, then you’ll feel better.
12.14.09 at 6:58 pm
This was stupid.
12.14.09 at 7:25 pm
i remember the pussy is magic song!!!! i loved that and sent it to all of my feminist friends who were still in thier college lesbian phases and they loved me (a dude) for it. there were even two threesomes involving two different sets of these lezzers that were talked about involving me but never came to fruition. it’s cool, i don’t want any threesomes anyway. too messy. too much emotional cleanup. i just want one special lady. jessica delfino, will you be my special lady?
12.14.09 at 8:09 pm
just the post-tour blues by the sounds of it.
12.14.09 at 9:02 pm
just the post-tour blues by the sounds of it.
12.14.09 at 9:02 pm
I gave her a chance, even though this post was hideous… I clicked on her myspace page and listened to her “music”.
Awful. Just awful. Nothing to be proud of there. NOTHING. Embarrassing. PROFOUNDLY BAD… terrible. Stop making it.
12.14.09 at 9:02 pm
street carnage is live journal now?
12.14.09 at 9:26 pm
Your music makes me want to blow my brains out. Your mouth deserves cancer for spewing that horrible shit.
12.14.09 at 9:49 pm
so fucking dull my god.
12.15.09 at 6:35 am
Whaa Whaaa Whaaa, I thought this was gonna be about how you’re going grey.
12.15.09 at 10:45 am
KYS
12.15.09 at 11:27 am
Most of the horrid commenters are the worst people in all of society. Die and take your mean asses with you!
02.03.12 at 2:03 am