Yes, it’s totally normal and not evil to want to be skinny all the time. I was just telling my friend yesterday that I felt the best about my body when I was on the junk. Oh well though, you know?

First, if you’re running 30 minutes three times a week you will lose weight. That’s a pretty good amount of running. Just wait for it. I have to be honest with you that this is not an area that I have a lot of experience in, hence that fact that I don’t write about it that much. I’m 5″2 and my weight fluctuates.

When I got sobes I was like 130 lbs and didn’t date that much. I kind of saw the weight gain as a blessing because I was supposed to be single for a year (that’s what they suggest). I lost the weight but it took about 2 years and I still didn’t feel skinny or anything — but when I’m fat my boobs are bigger so… you know, it’s not the WORST thing in the world.

I don’t own a scale. I lost a lot of weight this year because a) I went to India, b) I broke up with Scott and got depressed, and c) I got involved with Greg and started getting anxiety attacks all the time. This is the kind of diet you want! India will make anyone lose weight. You don’t want to eat and when you do, you get sick and puke it up anyway. I do love being thin because I like wearing jeans and sneakers and not feeling like a dump-mare. Since I’m single it’s easier to watch what I eat and I try to keep a very strict three square meal diet. All those meals are somewhat healthy: fruit, yogurt, veggies, protein. I also walk a ton. I enjoy running but as a smoker it’s difficult. Smoking doesn’t hurt for weight loss either. Smoke yourself thin! I’m not a Nazi when it comes to food either; I give myself one “bad” eating day a week which is usually on the weekend. Sometimes I do sit-ups too.

I don’t know, this is boring. A lot of people who are former drug addicts have issues with food. My issues are mostly with love/relationships/finances. Get dumped or dump someone, and you’ll lose weight. I wish I had something better to tell you. I feel like such a failure right now. I’m going to eat my feelings.